A Seat On The Bus of Life

Boarding the Bus of Life

I have been a longtime follower of medical intuitive Caroline Myss, purchasing both her books and audio workshops – and greatly appreciating her teachings and wisdom. And then C-jab happened. I received an email from her that linked to a video where she mocked those of us who questioned the jab science and safety, and told us to stop being so ridiculous and just get the darn shot.

I too have a large following of almost 200,000 people on my list – I would never presume to bully or ridicule them into a health decision, no matter how strongly I felt about it. During this whole palaver I have only urged my readers to connect to their intuition and their deep body wisdom and do as their own body/soul guides them. For those who asked my personal opinion, I set up a website with pertinent information. My entire family of origin got jabbed with no judgment or argument from me. And so I wrote to Caroline:

“I am utterly shocked that someone with your calibre of mind and intuitive development, could make such an uninformed pejorative statement against people who have researched extensively and do not believe the jab is safe. Are you completely unaware that over 50,000 medical doctors and PhD scientists have signed a declaration stating that the jab is not safe? You have obviously done no research to discover that this jab has the highest rate of adverse reactions of any vaccine in the history of humankind. So after denigrating my extensive research and highly developed intuitive sense, you are now going to teach me about personal power? I have been a big fan, supporter, and disseminator of your work for 20 years Caroline. I am deeply disappointed and saddened by your position.”

I did not receive a response and who knows if she even saw it, or whether it disappeared into the files of a personal assistant. I wonder how she feels about the jab now, with new negative information emerging almost daily, and the highest number of adverse reactions of all vaccines combined, since vaccination was first rolled out to children on this planet?

Don’t get me wrong, I am no stranger to this state of being. At age five I was kicked out of my birth country for not being black enough. I suffered the devastating loss of the land that felt the most like ME, and the animals I loved with all my heart and soul. I came to a new country where I was then too brown, but I did not shrink or make myself any smaller.

Curly, blonde haired Leif, 3 years older than me, decided he did not want a Paki sitting next to him on the school bus. So he told me to get out of his seat. I informed him that it was not his seat and I would not be moving. Over the next 45 minutes he tried every tactic he could think of to get me out of that seat. Including mustering all the leverage of the bus’ movement to catapult his body across the seat and slam into me, over and over, in an attempt to dislodge me. I held a vice grip on the back of the seat and both feet braced on the floor, staring straight ahead, along with the sheer determinism that he would not run me off like a mangy dog. He could not budge me. Did I enjoy being part of that experience for 45 minutes, with every eye on the bus watching me, judging me? No. But some hills you choose to die on, if you have to, because it’s more important than just staying alive.

I was almost 2 years younger than any member of my class, because I started reading at age 3. I never fit in and I didn’t care to. I am the only woman I know who has never been given a bridal shower, or a baby shower. I’ve never had many friends, and sometimes I’ve had none that lived in the same country as me. With the birth of my first child, I began my deep dive into the efficacy of vaccination. My three children remain unvaccinated and so I went through the hassle with schools etc. for the last 20 years.

I never tried to be part of my Indian culture because not only was I not brown enough, I did not agree with patriarchy and chauvinism. So you see, I have spent my entire life marginalized. I have never been one of the majority, or the popular group. I have always been the minority, the fringe, the outsider. And I’ve been quite happy to occupy that space. My sense of belonging has never come from acceptance by dominant groups. I have always looked for and found the good everywhere. But this is different. This time there is dread, deep unease, and often despair. And we’re all just so damn tired.

At the same time as being rejected by my birth country for not being black enough, and then being rejected by the next country for being too brown, I was simultaneously aware that I was Jewish enough for Hitler to have exterminated me. And thank God that time has passed.

Normally I am an optimist, and an adventurer. I have never defined myself by my race, or gender, nor have I accepted being defined by others. When my doctor told me I had an incurable disease, I left medical care and decided I would cure myself, or die trying. That’s the kind of person I am. I have since helped over 150,000 people heal themselves, using my methods. It is one of my greatest joys in life, to pay it forward. I write all these things only to make it clear that I have always, always lived outside the box. I have always been a fringe-dweller, and happily so.

Even now, I can understand peoples’ rabid-dog fear of viral infection and thus I would be OK to live off-grid, in an isolated community of just a few like-minded souls. I actually don’t need to be part of your groups, or your healthcare system, your schools, or your public life of concerts and sporting events. But I do need to have freedom of movement to travel to my ranch in my own private vehicle, to live in the climate I choose (which involves flying on an airplane), to purchase supplies. Right now, in Canada and the U.S., I have been barred from doing that for two years – basic human rights – because I am unjabbed. People think it’s all over now. Is it? Or is round 2 coming?

I will not go quietly. You do not get to have my seat on the bus. For the simple reason that it’s not right.


  1. Ginny January 24, 2023 at 3:56 pm - Reply

    Thank you so much, Jini, for sharing your valid experiences and lifelong journey with us. I have known many people who have interacted with Caroline Myss, some for years and some only briefly. Very rarely have I met anyone, in fact only one person, who supported her methods, arrogance and often psychological and energetic abuse.

    • JINI January 24, 2023 at 9:53 pm - Reply

      I have never met or interacted with her in person. I have received her work/teachings through her books and online audio courses, which I have greatly enjoyed and found significant value. UNTIL this covid era. This is why I feel the decision to get jabbed, or not, is more of an energetic decision than a physical one… it seems to signify a choice that, once made, has far-reaching consequences. I’ve watched a few of her recent videos and haven’t even gotten all the way through any of them – whereas previously I would be riveted. She seems significantly different to me.

      And how is it, that so many people with strong intuitive or psychic abilities were not able to intuit the problematic issues with the V on either a physical or energetic level? I remain puzzled.

      But yes, regarding Caroline, if someone is abusive or offensive to many people in their live workshops, then they should delve into that Shadow and do their work!

  2. BERTVELDHUIZEN January 24, 2023 at 4:04 pm - Reply


    • JINI January 24, 2023 at 9:57 pm - Reply

      Thanks Bert! And yes, each of us has our own struggles, and our experience is relative to our situations. Firefighters are definitely a different breed with a separate culture – not sure why… I’m reminded of a Dojo I trained at in Tokyo for 2 years – that too was a separate world with its own rules, culture, etc. Keep on questioning! The planet needs us more than ever :)

  3. Siobhan January 24, 2023 at 9:00 pm - Reply

    Oh my god Jini !! I am jumping up and down in my seat and singing Hallelujah!!! I am beyond inspired and uplifted from what you have shared here. I applaud your tenacity in living your life the way you want to live your life. While I wasn’t exactly marginalized as a child – I certainly have been during the C-Jab era for choosing not to get the Jab.

    My Mindfulness community also embraced the C-Jab and interestingly enough those that didn’t, were subtly made to feel less than and excluded from “the club”. Although to my teachers credit, she allowed ME to lead a Byron Katie’s “The Work” session with the sangha so that all of us could discover what we knew to be true beyond a shadow of a doubt! And to use her method of inquiry to see how we lived our life based on an opinion which we couldn’t know was true or not. It made some “sangha” members very uncomfortable that one of their own would stray from the herd!!! LOL !

    Although I did discover that Byron Katie herself embraced the C-Jab and not sure if she was vocal about her opinion or not.

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts with Carolyn Myss. It was totally off for her to make a blanket statement like she did without doing ANY research herself.

    Anyway, congratulations to you for following your own heart and inner wisdom and not the herd mentality!

    • JINI January 24, 2023 at 10:11 pm - Reply

      You see – this is what I wrote to Ginny here as well… HOW is it that people dedicated to practicing mindfulness meditation are being guided by their intuition (which is their body, because the body is the subconscious) to take this jab?? Is it because their path is to walk the healing journey that will ensue? Are some ready to leave the planet? I remain mystified…

      Speaking of Byron Katie, I love the way Dr. Carolyn Elliott has incorporated The Work into her process (Existential Kink). Have you read the book or listened to any podcasts with her? GREAT process for working with our Shadow. This is a good one to get introduced to her work:


      Big hugs xox

  4. Dee January 24, 2023 at 9:04 pm - Reply


  5. Gabriella Kardosi January 24, 2023 at 9:39 pm - Reply

    Good for you Jini! Your words resonate deeply. Stay strong and please keep inspiring us with your intuitive wisdom!

    • JINI January 24, 2023 at 10:12 pm - Reply

      Thanks Gabriella – more on this topic coming!

  6. Lorye K. Hopper January 25, 2023 at 2:10 pm - Reply

    Well done Jini for replying to Ms.Myss, who seems to be one of many, many folk totally ignorant about the
    toxicity of the C-jab! I am truly amazed how people who pay attention to putting nutritious food into their
    bodies, but do not research the ingredients of what is in the so called vaccines! Also those of us more wise know that we are a diverse human species by gender, weight, environment, mental, emotional etc & ‘One pharmaceuctical product’ does not suit everybody. (It’s like saying size 4 shoes will fit Everyone!) I am an elder now, with a background in nursing, but because I have suffered from the side effects of pharmaceutical drugs in my life, I have for many years turned to Mother Nature & her Wonderful Healing tonics. Thank You Jini for all You do to inspire People. Wishing You Many Blessings.

    • JINI January 25, 2023 at 8:30 pm - Reply

      Totally agree Lorye. And why is it that the “working class” seemed to have far more common sense and ability to connect to their gut intuition than “educated” people? Of course I’m generalizing. But there are also stats showing that lower income countryside areas had far lower jab rates. That’s what happened with my local community. Most people here also own their own business, and while a few supported the jab, many put signs up in their shops telling people they would never ask for medical info etc.

      One of my friends here never finished high school, couldn’t even read and write until he was an adult, and worked construction all his life. He’s only followed medical protocols. BUT when his doc went to give him the jab, he asked, “Wait a minute, what’s in that shot?” His doc said, “I don’t know” And so he refused. He was aghast that his doc was trying to inject him with something when he did now even know what it was! A year later the doc (who did get jabbed) said to him, “I wish I’d done what you did.”

      The world is turning upside down. If we don’t anchor to our own intuition and body wisdom we will not do well in this next decade. We need more elders like you :)

      • Dee January 26, 2023 at 6:45 am - Reply

        Wow, you’re fortunate that you live in such a progressive area. Ontario largely supports the status quo and anyone outside it gets harassed. Cannot imagine shops having signs like that here. Our premier even had the OPP fining seniors for walking in the park during lockdown. It’s bizarre how conformist people here are despite their being a large working class, and conservative rural majority. Or possibly because of it, from my own experience.

        You’re also fortunate you were the ostracized like many I know for having opinions that differed from your family, on many levels. So many of us aren’t that fortunate.

        Only wish that the same common sense you speak of doesn’t seem to translate to political curiosity here. Considering what’s going on right now in my city and why a certain political figure keeps returning to this city warrants questioning, but apparently not.

        • JINI January 27, 2023 at 6:02 am - Reply

          It gets to a certain point and we have to just ignore all the stuff that’s “burning” and focus on what we want to CREATE. What kind of life do we want to emerge from the ashes? And continually work towards that – no matter how long it takes.

          • Dee February 8, 2023 at 2:49 am - Reply

            Been focusing on creating my whole life. If our house is burning down, it needs attention ASAP. Just focusing on what we want isn’t going to be quite enough. Just like dealing with gut issues, it bears paying attention to. Yes, looking past the immediate is necessary. So is attending to what’s right in front of us, ime.

            • JINI February 8, 2023 at 6:29 am - Reply

              Very true – well said.

  7. Diane January 25, 2023 at 4:28 pm - Reply

    Kudos to you, Jini. All those who resisted that damn shot were, indeed, the wiser ones. The adverse effects listed on VAERS, and elsewhere should be enough to give anyone pause! So many succumbed to the various governments induced mass hysteria .

    I read your book, Listen To Your Gut, many years ago which helped me a lot. Loaned it to someone and never got it back. Good to see you showing up in my email. All the best.

    • JINI January 25, 2023 at 8:22 pm - Reply

      And not just the hysteria, the pressured coercion. My 84 year old father got double-jabbed solely because he wanted to go to his home in AZ for the winter. He is a doctor, he’d done his research, felt the jab was a scam, BUT he said, “I’m gonna die soon anyway, I’d rather die in the sun!” Fair enough.

      He did not die, caught covid twice, healed it using my natural methods and is right now in Mexico! So ya never know.

      The important piece is to LISTEN TO YOUR GUT – your own gut, no one else’s. Then you know you will make the right choice for your pathway – regardless of any data etc. And good to see you here!

  8. Lindy January 25, 2023 at 9:55 pm - Reply

    Jini, it’s always so encouraging to read pieces like this. For some reason your struggles were chosen for you so you could find your strength and strong you most definitely are. Our immediate family (minus one) rejected the jab and my God, are we glad we did. We knew the amount of unjustified coercion at the beginning was definitely a red flag and we spent many many many days, weeks, months and years researching anything we could that wasn’t mainstream and it’s there if you spend the time looking. What was spewing from mainstream and most importantly being excluded from mainstream media told us there was a lot more behind this than “help your family, help your friends – get your shot” and now so many can see it was all bullshite.
    We have chosen to treat our kids with natural medicines for the last 15 years and they haven’t seen a doctor in that 15 years , our friends and family that like to tease us about our “hippy” ways visit mainstream GPs regularly and are consuming various prescription medications on a daily basis. I hear NZ are trying to outlaw natural medicines and make them illegal – what does this say? Our world is so corrupt and hell bent on profit from pharmaceuticals that very little can be believed of mainstream at all. Strength to all those that choose to question and look to nature for answers. Believe it, you are all warriors in the fight. Peace and love to you all 🙏🏻🌸❣️

    • JINI January 27, 2023 at 5:55 am - Reply

      Well said Lindy! Our integrative physician (MD) fired us because me and the kids hadn’t needed him in over a decade LOL. Everything that’s ever happened we’ve been able to heal using natural methods.

      Have you checked out my tried & tested Home Remedies – good resource to give to others as it’s free and all instructions are there:


      If people felt in control of their health/bodies they wouldn’t be so easily scared and bullied.

  9. Shelley January 25, 2023 at 11:26 pm - Reply

    You’re an inspiration Jini! Totally agree!

  10. Dawn White January 26, 2023 at 12:47 am - Reply

    Dearest Jini,

    I honor your journey all the way to my bones! Jini, your story inspires me. And I am so grateful to you for all you have done with LTYG which saved me so deeply during 5 years of IBS and diverticulitis/osis … and beyond! You are a precious soul.

    I had two close medical friends who didn’t want to get the jab, and did not get it. But I did get one jab, b/c my family was so upset at me. But that was it. I had vertigo and other body discomforts from it, and when I saw the cancer doctor (I see him once a year to check a multiple myeloma marker) he said many of his patients had bad side effects from it, and he recommended that I not take any more shots. I was thrilled, b/c that’s what I was waiting for, b/c so many people were “for” it, and it was so clear to me that it wasn’t safe, and this doctor agreed! I haven’t seen the media where people share about bad reactions from it, but those in my family who feel so strongly *for* it will most likely not believe the reports, so I don’t want to argue.

    I love it Jini when you say “the body is consciousness,” b/c I feel that is true. One of my teachers also says, “the nervous system is consciousness” and I guess either way, it isn’t in our head! My current teacher says that our minds are simply empty, they are like a mirror, just reflecting thoughts as they pass thru, and it is the patterns in our life that hook us into them, instead of simply noticing them.

    I have studied so many paths, I’m 77 now, and life is so challenging, I just really wish for more love and peace and joy for all of us.

    Thank you always Jini, you are the best!!!

    • JINI January 27, 2023 at 5:58 am - Reply

      Wow you had a rare doctor indeed Dawn! And thanks so much for your lovely comments. I also love that: The nervous system is consciousness. Brilliant!

  11. Dee January 26, 2023 at 6:57 am - Reply

    You given us plenty to digest here. After consideration, I’m grateful you seemed to have some support for following the road less travelled. Many of us have had similar trials in life without any regular family support or even tolerance.

    The lengths you’ve gone to create results for yourself, and ultimately for others, are remarkable. Grateful for something of a community here for this kind of thing.

    In addition, what you describe of your experience in the two years is what others I’ve known have experienced over the last decade! In a city known to us for decades and no previous indications of people being treated as Second Class citizens. What’s gone on in Ontario, in particular, seems to be replicated throughout the country. And wider. Worth looking into since it impacts health and every aspect of life.

    • JINI January 27, 2023 at 6:00 am - Reply

      Yes Ontario definitely had it the worst – I wondered if they were using it as a ‘test province’ to see just how far they could push people and what would be tolerated. I know a lot of people have moved to Alberta!

      • Dee February 17, 2023 at 6:37 am - Reply

        The issues in Ontario are decades old. It’s the same dynamic we’ve usually had here. It’s the largest single population in the country. Ever seen the video about the majority of Canadians live in Ontario area, and majority live in the ‘boot’ of southern Ontario? You’re fortunate to have lived elsewhere. Live in one of the oldest Canadian cities. The most American from its inception (railroad built by Buffalo & Michigan) and also a seat of corruption. Courting of current PM and of social political movements sweeping our country. It’s a nightmare here for the majority, from what I’ve witnessed and heard about. Not just since downturns, but it’s always been there, from historic reports.

  12. Nel January 26, 2023 at 1:30 pm - Reply

    Right on Jini! You are not alone. Respect, love & appreciation

  13. Katya+Ivers January 29, 2023 at 4:37 am - Reply

    Reading through all these comments has made me question whether there is some important work to do having GOTTEN tha jab, as well as the obvious work being done by those who did not. Most, if not all of us, seem to have terrible pain written somewhere in our karmic contracts. I have, in the past, chosen to die on many a hill that I look back on now and know I was wrong, or at least not well-enough informed to have been less wrong. Just made me wonder the value of the other path.

    • JINI January 29, 2023 at 4:48 am - Reply

      Absolutely and thanks for bringing this forward. I too have seen myself screw up, hit the wall, and choose death (multiple times) rather than being able/ready to align with my integrity. It’s all good :) If we don’t get it in this lifetime, we get another chance. That’s why compassion trumps judgment – and we’re all on our own path.

      PLUS what’s the value of suffering? What if someone is choosing to dance with the constituents of the jab, with AI, etc? Again, CHOICE is king.

    • Dee February 17, 2023 at 6:40 am - Reply

      Wonder if it was your intuition to get the jab, if it was for good reasons or it was public pressure and now you regret it?

      • Katya+Ivers February 19, 2023 at 8:04 pm - Reply

        Oh it wasn’t my intuition! I was the one who always fought every vaccine I was forced to get. Very glad I didn’t get this one. I have friends who refused it like I did and held the line, friends who were forced to get it, and friends I nearly fell out with over them wanting me to get the jab, too. Just always curious about branching off points in life.

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